How vulnerable should I be! With our kids grown and married with children, work, admirable callings, I came home from Church this Sunday. Everything was all right at first: I made a late breakfast for Eric and myself, cleaned up and took a nap on the couch.
Suddenly I woke, my mouth open, my nap over and I felt bad,
useless, a critical attitude toward the world flooded my mind. I felt afraid of
the future, afraid of my own feeling of inadequacy.
I felt attacked.
As I lay there awhile, I decided to pick up the iPhone and
look up Animal Control, to find the way to reporting a Pit Bull dog that had
bitten both my husband and me. A nice couple, who have no children love this
dog, as the owner told me, “We love her like our child.” But the website required
personal information I would wait to give only if necessary. Instead, I will
likely write a hardcopy letter.
I got up from my nap, looked at the Calendar and saw that
next Sunday is both Daylight Savings and our children’s anniversary.
So, a pencil and chalk drawing for their card happened in
the next hour or two. Thanks to my electronically savvy husband, Eric, the card
should be ready to mail in the next couple of days.
I feel better now. I am useful. I love my husband of almost
fifty-one years, our children…all of them: our three sons, three daughters in
law and grandchildren. I am blessed. I have useful things to do…one attitude is
to get once again interested in cooking healthy, good tasting, attractive food.
"Do all things without murmurings and disputings: That ye may be
blameless and harmless, the sons of God, without rebuke, in the midst of a
crooked and perverse nation, among whom ye shine as lights in the
world..." Philippians 2:14,15
LORD, let me be a light.
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